It’s 7 in the morning
Silence is singing a chorus into my ears
And all I can think about
Is that if you gave me a few more seconds that night
My hands would’ve been able to memorize the mountain shaped creases in yours
As if your palms trapped the M in your smile
Because that’s all I ever wanted to see again.
I know that pictures won’t do it justice
Cameras capture memories
And I know eyes can do just the same
But I wanted your body to linger on mine for just a little bit longer.
You see, I will always think of you as the one that got away
I only had a taste of you
And now 8 months later
I regret swallowing you.
You were always an ocean to me.
Your mind was filled with so much depth
I could never get to the bottom
I remember how your body never flowed
But it always crashed
As if your muscles were cymbals
And the spray of the water was your sound
You knew you were not a musician but
You still always marched to the beat of your own drum.
There are days when I wish you marched with mine instead
I know I don’t have everything figured out 100% but I’m getting there, and I’m okay with that.
|808s & Heartbreak|
Two. I spent one and a half hours listening to Nujabes and different versions of Dearly Beloved in bed today and I felt like I was floating.
Three. I’ve come to understand why certain people in my life are acting a certain way. These people need validation in their lives constantly to feel security in themselves.
Four. Number three is a really disappointing fact.
Five. Why do you need to put me down? Why do you want dominance over me? I never did anything to you. I’m just trying to do the best that I can in all that I am held responsible for. Does that threaten you? I always thought you were better than that.
I don’t hate you, nor do I resent you. I just hope that you can find peace in yourself instead of depending on other’s downfall for temporary enlightenment.
Six. I need to get away from here.
Seven. I miss the dance community. I miss workshops and reconnecting with old teammates and not-teammates. I miss sharing a passion with people and being surrounded by strong bodies of energies instead of fire-breathing monsters who devour their own families.
I need to get away from this bullcrap.